A friend of mine recently completed this sentence as his status on facebook. Perhaps it is the latest five second trend; I have no idea. What I do know is that it got me thinking. 2012: the year I had to…?
Surrender. If I only get one word, that would be it. If I get a few more it might be something like: surrender, adapt, work like crazy. Or something light-hearted: say goodbye to sleep. It’s been a rollercoaster of a year, that’s for sure. My knuckles are still pale. It’s had its highlights but it’s not been gentle.
For starters, we left our lovely Vancouver, bound for New Zealand.
Then we had a little baby.
Then we left our lovely New Zealand, bound for Australia.
We juggled my husband’s work, my work, two young girls and living with extended family. Just in case I might find time to get bored I started a new blog project with a good friend. Sometimes it worked. Often it didn’t. Regularly I burst into tears. I had to stop wishing for things to be different. I had to stop solving situations that needed to just be. I like to think of myself as pretty adaptable, but I’m better at making change in my life rather than being on the receiving end. Aren’t we all?
I keep reminding myself that the most important things are great – my health, my husband’s health, my girls – both healthy and happy. Now those are blessings. We got to spend a lot more time together and a lot more time with our families than we have in years we’ve lived away. We got some Southern hemisphere sunshine, found a wonderful midwife to help us have our youngest and took long walks on the beach with our eldest. My husband and I each got time to work as well as spend time with the girls. I even managed to bash out a first draft of a manscript. Yeeha! Watch this space! It, like my year, is a bit messy and shambolic but it’s there; ready to be moulded and cut and re-shaped.
So, what is in store for 2013? I have absolutely no idea and have almost stopped guessing. I have a little wish-list, of course. I’d love it to be a little less turbulent. I’d like a few less changes and time to get my head above water every now and then. I’d like to work a lot and play at least a little. I’d like to introduce you to my new blog project. I’d like to keep in better contact with friends. And readers. And my editors, who I cannot wait to work with again. I’d love to keep up the good health and family time.
Tell me how you would finish the sentence: “2012: The Year you had to…”? I’d love to hear your answers. And because I won’t be back here until 2013 I’d like to wish you a very, very Merry Christmas and festive season. Thank you so much for dropping by, leaving comments and sending messages. May 2013 bring you and yours a wealth of happinesses.
With love, Hannah x