How I got here, part one.

The past life…

 

It’s a long story…. Or is it?

I did what I was supposed to do. I went to University. I got a job. I got another job. As a New Zealander I was obligated to “find myself” in the thrill and terror of moving overseas. I did (thank you, Melbourne, Australia). That wasn’t far enough or terrifying enough, so I tried out London. Then, China.

In 2008, I sat in my office, looking out through those vertical venetian blind thingies. I had a huge job. I was the Human Resources Director for a 4,000 employee casino in Macau, SAR. My view comprised of a hallway, then another office, and through that other office’s windows a grey and milky sky and a motorway bridge. I cried.

Don’t get me wrong, I love offices. I love desks and phones and filing trays. I don’t even mind obstructed views of polluted skylines (well…) But I was in the wrong job. I twisted my venetian blinds shut and bawled my eyes out, thinking about how lost I felt. The worst of it? I am a trained career coach. Qualified to help people sort out “what the ^&*! should I do with my life?” And yet, here I was, bamboozled.

So, I quit. And then?

I resolved to “follow my natural enthusiasms”. That was my plan. Not exactly a road map. More of a mantra…

6 Comments on How I got here, part one.

  1. matthew ballesty
    March 12, 2011 at 7:01 am (7 years ago)

    Dear Hannah I love the way you make words sing on a page.

    Reply

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